Seed Meditation - Bursting Forth

I wrote on the last morning of my Woman Within weekend after a seed meditation. I whole heartedly recommend Woman Within for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Infinite possibility exists within me and I know the new life I am creating for myself. I can feel it, see it, taste it, and smell it. I know it. I’ve been dreaming it, seeing it, writing it into being for years now, and the seed has sprouted this morning. The new life has burst forth into being, been born into life, into manifestation, into reality.

I am a brand new woman today, although my soul is ancient & eternal. I know the Truth of who I Am. I know my birthright. My heart has been emptied of all impurities and is now full of white light and pink femininity, like the energy of a rose quartz crystal.

I have gone through the pain of the dark confinement and growing pains of seed-dom, and now feel the shining light of love & grace upon my radiant, blissful, smiling face. I am a beautiful green being, reaching always joyfully toward the light of the sun, the Truth, the divine, the infinite.

I am woman. I am empowered, graceful, beautiful, feminine woman. I am, I am, I am.

Amen, halleluia. Thank you, God. Thank you, Goddess.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

A True Fairytale

I wrote this during my Woman Within weekend, which I whole heartedly recommend for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful princess. She was the most powerful woman in all the land. But she was locked in a cage of fear.

She felt sometimes resigned, apathetic, and victimized. And when she felt like this she would sulk in her cage and give up hope.

And at other times she would feel a lot of anger & passion and she would stand up and rattle the bars, screaming in a rage for someone to let her out. She had some very beautiful work to do in the world that she could not do from within the cage. She was on the Earth to shed & spread light, and she had a burning fire in her belly to fulfill the purpose of her life.

And one day, a very beautiful, amazing, powerful thing happened. She became aware that the cage was made of the fear that her mind had created. She knew then that her cage was only a thought. A strong thought that had been reinforced over & over through time by her parents, herself, and others around her as well.

And she knew that she could unthink the cage by using positive affirmations to make it disappear. She knew it was her responsibility to create the reality that she wanted.

At first this realization & awareness felt exciting & liberating. But soon a new fear set in – a fear of taking responsibility for this ability & power. And so she continued to vacillate between resignation & rage, between feeling victimized and attempting to control everything around her in a way that did not allow any room for God’s will.

And then one day she snapped. Like a sudden popping, like a kernel of popping corn that has reached the temperature threshold that it needs to reach in order to blossom into a delicious piece of fluffy popcorn, she popped.

She, in that instant, decided that it was time, from that moment on, to live fully in her power. To take full responsibility for it and to use it well. The heating process, the process of talking, writing, and contemplating about all of this, is not to be disregarded. This was an important part of her journey and needs to be acknowledged.

But in the moment in which she “popped” she left this process in the past and stepped fully, boldly, courageously, strongly, radiantly into a brand new reality.

She became a queen – Queen Erin. She became a fully empowered adult woman. She began a beautiful new chapter of her life. She emerged as a caterpillar emerges as a butterfly from its cocoon, smiling brilliantly, seeing the world with its new eyes, as if for the first time.

And in this moment, eyes welled up with tears of gratitude & bliss, awe & wonder at the magic of the Universe, this transformed Queen Erin began to shine her light in the way she knew she had come to the Earth to do. She sang, she danced, she wrote, she celebrated the goodness of it all, fully inspired.

And this happiness, this light, rippled out to all the world.

And it was good.

The End.

The Moon

The moon is deep and seductive, secretive and wise. She flows through her cycles and pulls the tides of the vast, watery, dark oceans. She knows that these ebbs & flows, these cycles & rhythms, this waxing & waning is her nature. She honors them as beautiful & divine & perfect. Her femininity is rounded and curvy and open and receptive. She is ancient and she is our grandmother, looking over us, pouring light upon us and drenching us in the light of pure awareness…silently.

Further!

"If you're not amazed by how naive you were yesterday,
you're standing still.

If you're not terrified of the next step,
your eyes are closed.

If you're standing still and your eyes are closed,
you're only dreaming you're awake.

A caged bird in a boundless sky."

-Jed McKenna

Never before has this quote by Jed McKenna rang truer for me. These past few days, weeks, months, years...I feel like I am accelerating faster and faster and faster. Like someone hit fast forward on the DVD player and the button is stuck now, so there is no way to slow it down again. But it's okay because it's intensely exciting, exhilarating, evolutionary...

The lessons I am learning are right in my face, everywhere I look, and the themes and patterns are impossible to miss. Surrender, empowerment, femininity, self-nurturing, balance...and my close women friends echo the same words, lessons, and themes.

It's time now to go through the issues, not around them.

It's time now to feel the emotions fully, and stop trying to avoid them.

It's time now to get into our bodies and do the work on this planet that we came here to do.

It's time now to dismantle the old patterns and burn them in the fire.

It's time now to let go, to relax, and to trust that we are fully supported. We always have been, and always will be.

It's time to make outrageous requests of the Universe, to commit to ourselves 110%, to have complete integrity with ourselves and others, and to be daring and bold.

Now the real fun begins...ready or not, it's time to go further and further and further!!!