Seed Meditation - Bursting Forth

I wrote on the last morning of my Woman Within weekend after a seed meditation. I whole heartedly recommend Woman Within for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Infinite possibility exists within me and I know the new life I am creating for myself. I can feel it, see it, taste it, and smell it. I know it. I’ve been dreaming it, seeing it, writing it into being for years now, and the seed has sprouted this morning. The new life has burst forth into being, been born into life, into manifestation, into reality.

I am a brand new woman today, although my soul is ancient & eternal. I know the Truth of who I Am. I know my birthright. My heart has been emptied of all impurities and is now full of white light and pink femininity, like the energy of a rose quartz crystal.

I have gone through the pain of the dark confinement and growing pains of seed-dom, and now feel the shining light of love & grace upon my radiant, blissful, smiling face. I am a beautiful green being, reaching always joyfully toward the light of the sun, the Truth, the divine, the infinite.

I am woman. I am empowered, graceful, beautiful, feminine woman. I am, I am, I am.

Amen, halleluia. Thank you, God. Thank you, Goddess.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

A True Fairytale

I wrote this during my Woman Within weekend, which I whole heartedly recommend for any and every woman. www.womanwithin.org.

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful princess. She was the most powerful woman in all the land. But she was locked in a cage of fear.

She felt sometimes resigned, apathetic, and victimized. And when she felt like this she would sulk in her cage and give up hope.

And at other times she would feel a lot of anger & passion and she would stand up and rattle the bars, screaming in a rage for someone to let her out. She had some very beautiful work to do in the world that she could not do from within the cage. She was on the Earth to shed & spread light, and she had a burning fire in her belly to fulfill the purpose of her life.

And one day, a very beautiful, amazing, powerful thing happened. She became aware that the cage was made of the fear that her mind had created. She knew then that her cage was only a thought. A strong thought that had been reinforced over & over through time by her parents, herself, and others around her as well.

And she knew that she could unthink the cage by using positive affirmations to make it disappear. She knew it was her responsibility to create the reality that she wanted.

At first this realization & awareness felt exciting & liberating. But soon a new fear set in – a fear of taking responsibility for this ability & power. And so she continued to vacillate between resignation & rage, between feeling victimized and attempting to control everything around her in a way that did not allow any room for God’s will.

And then one day she snapped. Like a sudden popping, like a kernel of popping corn that has reached the temperature threshold that it needs to reach in order to blossom into a delicious piece of fluffy popcorn, she popped.

She, in that instant, decided that it was time, from that moment on, to live fully in her power. To take full responsibility for it and to use it well. The heating process, the process of talking, writing, and contemplating about all of this, is not to be disregarded. This was an important part of her journey and needs to be acknowledged.

But in the moment in which she “popped” she left this process in the past and stepped fully, boldly, courageously, strongly, radiantly into a brand new reality.

She became a queen – Queen Erin. She became a fully empowered adult woman. She began a beautiful new chapter of her life. She emerged as a caterpillar emerges as a butterfly from its cocoon, smiling brilliantly, seeing the world with its new eyes, as if for the first time.

And in this moment, eyes welled up with tears of gratitude & bliss, awe & wonder at the magic of the Universe, this transformed Queen Erin began to shine her light in the way she knew she had come to the Earth to do. She sang, she danced, she wrote, she celebrated the goodness of it all, fully inspired.

And this happiness, this light, rippled out to all the world.

And it was good.

The End.

I Am Empowered

Today, more than any other day of my life, I am standing firmly in my power. I accept full responsibility for my power, and am committed to using it for the highest good. I do not give it away to anyone. I do not give it away to anything - not food, not self-defeating behaviors, not ego, not to ANYthing. I am true to mySELF.

Last night I was crying and crying. I was at a fabulous Arthur Lee Land show and I couldn't stop crying because I want to be on a stage, singing my songs. Yes, I was crying and crying, and I knew why. I have been giving my power away to other people, putting myself in support positions when it is my time to have my creations supported by others. It is my time to shine.

Of course we are all interconnected and support each other all the time, but it's time for me to really value what is unique and special about me, and share it with the world. It's time for me to create sustainable streams of income for myself, rather than doing all these odd jobs for so many people.

So last night, and again today I did a ritual of empowerment. Last night it was on the phone with my friend Mark. I told him that we were both going to step into our power on the count of three. We drew invisible lines on the floor, and committed to stepping across that line, into our power, and never going back. I counted down and we both jumped over the line, and were dancing and drumming and screaming and rejoicing.

Then today, I was at a Waking Down sitting and when it was my turn to speak I told them about my commitment to standing firmly in my power. And I took everyone there through a similar ritual. Feel free to do this ritual, wherever you are.

We all spread out so that we would all be able to take giant leaps into our power. We drew our imaginary lines on the ground.

I said, "Close your eyes. Breathe deeply into your heart, into the depths of your being...Feel who you are...Appreciate how unique you are...Know that only you can do the work that you came to Earth to do...Feel how strong you are, how courageous, how powerful..."

I paused and let it sink in, and then continued, "Repeat after me."

"I am powerful."

"I am empowered."

"I accept full responsibility for my power."

"I am cross this line into my power, and I am NEVER going back!!!"

3...2...1...

And we screamed and danced and shrieked and yelped wildy!!! Hooray!!! We are empowered, and it feels SO GOOD!!!