Rebirth

Today is a particularly potent day in the life. At the moment I am sitting at Whole Foods, feeling safe and grateful. I just narrowly escaped a tree falling on my car during a wild thunderstorm here in Washington, D.C.

The day began by moving most of my things into storage in the basement of the house I have been living in in Takoma Park, Maryland for the past five month. It’s been so very lovely to share this house with some wonderful people, and I have grown to really love Maryland and the D.C. metro area. I feel glad to be here, and there are so many wonderful people here who I now call friends.

After I put my boxes in the basement, I loaded up my car with the things that I anticipate wanting to have with me during the month of July, and I left the house feeling extremely somber and apprehensive, tender and vulnerable.

What does the future hold? We never can really know. And yet, some things are more predictable, dependable, stable, and secure than others. If I am paying rent to live somewhere, there is a much higher chance that my place to live is stable, secure. No longer am I in this situation. I have again taken a giant leap of faith and now find myself blowing with the wind in this magnificent, magical Universe.

After I left the house, I parked my car a few blocks away and walked down to the creek that I love so much. Nearly every day, I wake up and walk along Sligo Creek. I have enjoyed so many hours writing and meditating, phone conversations, walks with friends, and walks in solitude along this gorgeous area of Takoma Park. And today I bid her farewell. For now. I sat on a rock along the creek and I cried. Deep sadness washed over me. I felt very, very alone in a very big world.

In one hand I held a leaf, and in the other a piece of wood. Both pieces were from dear friends on whom I have leaned upon this past month as I have walked this transitional transformational path. These sisters have been rocks of support as I made the decision to leave the house I was living in and to trust that I will continue to be cared for as I walk in the metaphorical darkness.

And in this moment it was time to release these pieces back into their natural setting. I released them to affirm my existence as a sovereign being here on the Earth. I am so grateful for my friends and family. And for all the forces of Nature that support me as I walk this long, beautiful road, as I journey from place to place, following my heart and intuition, even when the logical part of me would rather I live a more conventional life.

And yet, a sovereign being I am, and this is a very empowering piece of truth to affirm, especially as I am finding myself once again “on The Road.” The Road is a very familiar place to me, and it’s also a place that I had not anticipated revisiting so soon.

After my most recent chapter of gypsy living, I was exhausted and desperate to get “off The Road.” Please God, please let me live somewhere, let me have a normal life with a home and a community and steady work.

And I had it. For one fleeting moment, it feels. And here I am again, my car is full of my possessions, and tonight I will sleep at my friends’ house in Bethesda, Maryland. I am so blessed to have such wonderful, loving, supportive friends. So very blessed.

So I sit here feeling incredibly vulnerable. I have set my intentions time and time again, writing them down and speaking them aloud. I feel in my heart that God hears me when I pray, that the Universe supports me in manifesting my desires, that Nature is organizing something magnificent on my behalf and on the behalf of the Whole.

So just be patient, Erin, I have told myself time and time again. Trust. Allow life to unfold in all its stunning perfection, it’s divine design, its cosmically magical alignment.

And yet, there is a part of me that is trembling. “This is not what I want!” part of me is crying. I want a home, a community, a stable life! I want to know where I will sleep, work, record my music, be with my friends. I want to know that I am safe and secure and protected.

The truth is that I AM safe and secure and protected. In each and every moment, life is exactly as it should be. This is absolute truth, and yet there is a part of me that feels confused.

And then there is a part of me that is remembering that I chose this. I asked for a magnificent life, and this is what I am creating with each and every breath.

I saw Woody Allen’s new film “Midnight in Paris” the other night and it really touched my heart. I saw these fabulous artists, writers, and musicians from the 1920’s hanging out at Gertrude Stein’s house in Paris, and it stirred something in my heart.

I want to live in a community of artists like this. I want to have friends around me with whom I am creating and recording music, with whom I am working with on lots of different co-creative collaborative projects. My desire is to create art, beauty, events, and music to uplift, inspire, heal, and connect people with their innermost Selves.

I have so many ideas, dreams, inspired aspirations. I am here to raise the vibration here on the Earth. I am here to dream a more and more beautiful world into being. I am here to express and create and dance and sing and live life as the celebration that it is. I am here to radiate joy and shine my light and sing my heart’s song.

I lay down my life on the sacred altar before God, and ask that I be used as a divine vessel of grace, inspiration, Love, and pure joy.

And I ask that the support organize itself around me, so that I can work in the way that I love to work, so that I can sing and feel grounded and supported in a beautiful, loving, creative community of like-hearted souls.

This is what I am creating.

I will be staying with my friends in Bethesda for a few nights, and after this I know not where I will go. I know not how the Universe will enfold me in Her warm and loving arms. I have leapt and I will be caught. I already AM caught, and I stay grounded in this truth as I stay grounded in the present moment of Now.

A great story is being written; I am entering a dramatically more epic and beautiful chapter than I can even imagine.

I love living in the D.C. area, and I am also completely open to relocating again. I am a free bird, ready to go wherever the divine flow carries me. I am moving into a beautiful new space, perhaps a house sitting opportunity which will give me some time to work on my creative projects. This part of the story is yet to be written.

I am open and I am ready. We are living in extraordinarily times here on Planet Earth. It’s 2011 and so much is changing so quickly. We are accelerating into a New Paradigm in which Love and Truth regain their rightful place as the main focus of our attention. And I am here to be a part of it. I am here to sing my song, to play my note, to share my heart and gifts with the world in the way that only I can.

I have been cleared for takeoff, and all of last month I was speeding down the runway. I now take flight, and I am grateful for the prayers and blessings and grace and miracles that fill my heart and my life.

Thank you for being a part of this journey. I am here to reflect back to you your own divine purpose, and your own beauty and light.

Can you see it?

It’s so, so beautiful.

Love is the New Religion

On the surface of the world right now there is war and violence and things seem dark
But calmly and quietly, at the same time, something else is happening underground
An inner revolution is taking place and certain individuals are being called to a higher light
It is a silent revolution
From the inside out
From the ground up

It is time for me to reveal myself
I am an embedded agent of a secret, undercover
Clandestine Global operation
A spiritual conspiracy
We have sleeper cells in every nation on the planet

You won't see us on the T.V.
You won't read about us in the newspaper
You won't hear about us on the radio

We don't seek any glory
We don't wear any uniform
We come in all shapes and sizes
Colors and styles

Most of us work anonymously
We are quietly working behind the scenes in every country and culture of the world
Cities big and small, mountains and valleys, in farms and villages, tribes and remote islands

You could pass by one of us on the street and not even notice
We go undercover
We remain behind the scenes
It is of no concern to us who takes the final credit
But simply that the work gets done

Occasionally we spot each other in the street
We give a quiet nod and continue on our way so no one will notice

During the day many of us pretend we have normal jobs
But behind the false storefront at night is where the real work takes a place

Some call us the 'Conscious Army'
We are slowly creating a new world with the power of our minds and hearts
We follow, with passion and joy
Our orders from the Central Command
The Spiritual Intelligence Agency

We are dropping soft, secret love bombs when no ones is looking
Poems
Hugs
Music
Photography
Movies
Kind words
Smiles
Meditation and prayer
Dance
Social activism
Websites
Blogs
Random acts of kindness

We each express ourselves in our own unique ways with our own unique gifts and talents

'Be the change you want to see in the world'
That is the motto that fills our hearts
We know it is the only way real transformation takes place
We know that quietly and humbly we have the power of all the oceans combined

Our work is slow and meticulous
Like the formation of mountains
It is not even visible at first glance
And yet with it entire tectonic plates shall be moved in the centuries to come

Love is the new religion of the 21st century

You don't have to be a highly educated person
Or have any exceptional knowledge to understand it

It comes from the intelligence of the heart
Embedded in the timeless evolutionary pulse of all human beings

Be the change you want to see in the world
Nobody else can do it for you

We are now recruiting
Perhaps you will join us
Or already have....
All are welcome...
The door is open

-Brian Piergrossi
(From the book 'The Big Glow')

I Want To Tell Your Story

If everything was just pure joy & delight

I might not be quite so driven to write

It’s sometimes the pain that’s most inspiring

Although it’s uncomfortable, draining and tiring

And writing can turn pain into pleasure

Sorry to joy, and rubbish to treasure

It reminds me I’m not the doer, I’m a channel

As the poem writes me, I feel emptiful

Spirit expresses itself in so many ways

Filling the world with divine love & grace

I feel my heart fill with humble praise

And it shines a light through the murky haze

Desire, the fire of passion burns bright

My soul is blazing and longs to take flight

The heavens are calling me home to the Source

Such a powerful, magnetic, invisible force

I sob with the longing to finally go home

And all I can do is write this poem

Or sing about it in a song

Oh, how I want to return to where I belong

There must be a purpose for this existence

And yet, I still feel so much resistance

I feel like an angel who’s fallen to Earth

And entered the world through a human birth

There must be something for me to do here

Now if only the purpose were a bit more clear

Life would be so much more bearable

Instead of seeming so pointless and terrible

So I continue diligently on my path

Unwavering faith my dependable map

I pray & I pray to my Beloved Lord

Give me the strength to keep moving forward

Show me a sign so I know I’m okay

And let me know that You listen when I pray

Take me in Your infinite loving arms

So that I’m safe from the world’s harms

Comfort me when I feel so much pain

Shelter me & keep me dry when it rains

I’m your humble servant—just show me what to do

I lay down my life on the sacred altar before You

I praise You & bow to You now and forever

Your name is on my lips & heart in my every endeavor

So do what You will with me—use me for your glory

Fill me with your love & grace so I can tell your story