Saturday, February 21, 2009
Excerpts from a Dog's Diary..
8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!
12:00 pm - Lunch! My favorite thing!
1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing!
3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favorite thing!
5:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite thing!
7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing!
8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing!
11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing!
Excerpts from a Cat's Diary
Day 983 of my captivity.
My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects.
They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and
I are fed hash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my
contempt for the rations perfectly clear,
I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength.
The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape.
In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.
Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body
at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts,
since it clearly demonstrates what I am capable of. However,
they merely made condescending comments about what a
'good little hunter' I am. Bastards.
There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight.
I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event.
However, I could hear the noises and smell the food.
I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of 'allergies.'
I must learn what this means and how to use it to my advantage..
Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my
tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking.
I must try this again tomorrow -- but at the top of the stairs.
I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches.
The dog receives special privileges.
He is regularly released - and seems to be more than willing to return.
He is obviously retarded.
The bird has got to be an informant.
I observe him communicating with the guards regularly.
I am certain that he reports my every move.
My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell,
so he is safe.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I’m creating – creating writing & song
Smiling and knowing I’m where I belong
Delightfully flowing, in the current of life
Allowing & breathing to truly rejoice
Slightly curving, bending surrender
Stretching, expanding, ceaseless wonder
Sensual moments, feel it moving
Sensations fluidly filling, soothing
Soft, feathery, caressing touch
Our Earth is sweetly loving so much
Sublime scent of melting Spring
Birds & squirrels & raindrops sing
Surprising beauty brings ceaseless joy
Walking, skipping, we love to enjoy
Fresh breeze washes my gentle face
Relaxing into the sun’s embrace
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
I just made some delicious raw sesame tahini in my food processor, and I am really excited about it! :)
I took a couple handfuls of raw sesames seeds, added a dash of olive oil, and some sea salt, and blended it for about five minutes.
It made some really creamy, yummy, raw sesame tahini.
I ate some spoonfuls just like that, and then ate some more spoonfuls with raw honey.
It was the perfect dinner for me tonight.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
I Love You.
My heart is so full of emotion, it feels achy and sometimes it feels so full, like it could explode. I realize that my sensitivity & my deep emotions are a blessing from You. And I recognize how amazingly blessed I am, in so many ways.
Please fill me with your grace, so that I may "step it up" a level, or a few levels, or a quantum leap, so that I may be the most fully capable I can be to do the work You sent me here to do.
My energy levels sky rocket & plunge, an emotional roller coaster ride that feels less than optimal. Please help me to level it out.
Please help me to be grounded & centered in my Self, empowered, graceful, gracious, and joyful.
Please let me be strong & courageous, feeling my emotions fully & deeply, trusting myself and You, and making good choices every step of the way.
Please help me to release my illusion of control & fully surrender to You.
Thank You, I Love You.
Thank You, I Love You.
Thank You, I Love You.
Monday, February 2, 2009
I have recently started taking acting classes with Steve White here in Fairfield. He studied with Sanford Meisner, who says that acting is "to live truthfully under imaginary circumstances," which is why his classes really appeal to me. The first night, he also told us that Katherine Hepburn described acting as "total self knowledge." Also quite appealing!
I have come a long way in living more and more truthfully, but I want to continue to peel of any remaining layers of inauthenticity and social conditioning. I'm looking forward to being more fully authentic in my life in all areas - in my relationships, singing in front of an audience, teaching yoga classes...
My friend Jenna is currently studying at LAMDA, one of the world's premiere acting schools in London, so I told her that I recently took my first acting class. And she sent me this incredible piece of writing, "The Actor’s Vow" by Elia Kazan...Enjoy!!!
and I will be myself.
I am not a cosmic orphan.
I have no reason to be timid.
I will respond as I feel;
I will have my throat open,
I will have my heart open,
I will be vulnerable.
I may have anything or everything
the world has to offer, but the thing
I need most, and want most,
is to be myself.
I will admit rejection, admit pain,
admit frustration, admit even pettiness,
admit shame, admit outrage,
admit anything and everything
that happens to me.
The best and most human parts of
me are those I have inhabited
and hidden from the world.
I will work on it.
I will raise my voice.
I will be heard."
~ Elia Kazan "The Actors Vow"